They want more

When the old lines swelter like a burned down shack
With the words so loud, I could never take back
And their freeze frame memory, nobody forgets
I’m still caught up even though I feel far away from it
If they want more than what you got left
If they want more than what you wanna give them
It’s alright

And with all these colors running through my head
While I’m losing sleep thinking it could go unsaid
I repeat it so often until it makes sense
Wanna get it out of me, then put it all to rest
If they want more than what you got left
If they want more than what you wanna give them
You can’t fake the feelings you get
And you can’t escape it
No you can’t escape it anymore

In a strange way, looking through the fields I left
All my thoughts wide open and my mind’s at rest
While everybody’s climbing over everyone to get
Any place other than the one they’re already at
And it always seems so appealing at first
Ain’t it odd when you discover just exactly what it’s worth
And they want…

Yeah they want more than what you got left
And they want more than what you wanna give them, it’s alright
Yeah they want more than what you got left
And they want more than what you wanna give but it’s alright
Yeah they want more than what you got left
And they want more than what you wanna give them, you can’t
Fake the feeling you get and you can’t
Make the feelings out of nothing, they want
More than what you got left and they want
More than what you wanna give them, you can’t
Fake the feelings you get and you can’t escape it and you can’t
Escape it anymore

 

KICK ME OUT

It’s so cold
Opening the door
Trying to walk some other line
I used to walk before
All around me is change and I see
All the places I used to belong
That I don’t wanna be

And the others pointing back at us
Fetishize some golden age that never really was
They manufacture their towns and their sites and their sounds
’Til it all looks alike, you know they make it so easy…

Kick me out.

You’re not here, are you anymore
When you’re so caught up in how you think it oughta go
That you don’t even know your own song, but
You want us to learn every line and try to sing along

But we don’t wanna carry it around
All your petty morals add up to nothing anyhow
You’re so immersed in your culture of fear, 
When you fall, I don’t wanna be near
You’re gonna make it so easy…

Kick me out.

And I’m here talking at myself
Trying to make sense of it all like anybody else
I see it tangled in front of my face
And I wonder sometimes to myself if I can get it straight

But I’d rather be struggling in the haze
Than here among the brutally average for another day
For you it’s all an attempt to escape, and it’s fine
But don’t be so surprised when other people say…

Kick me out

 

SOMETHING TO RUIN

I wish something ugly would happen
Cause an uproar and alter the outcome
It’s better this way, but I couldn’t prove it
It’s better this way, but what could I do?

I want an outlet. Something to ruin
I want to do what nobody is doing
It’s better this way, but I couldn’t prove it
It’s better this way, but what could I do?

Whatever rises from under the ashes
Carrying on, with or without us…
I want to be there because I think it might just
Be better this way. But what could I do?

 

SO HAZY

All of your friends are so immune to this
Rising over all you see, burning deep inside of me

Get it, I get it, I guess that I let it
Come up and take away my perspective
All that I want is to even it out
So many of us, so hazy no way to be present
I can’t end the conversation in my head
And part of me wonders if I had
Done something different
Would all of this matter
Or would they not even notice it?
The trouble is sometimes I want to
Leave here without it
And this all makes me wonder
If I should be so invested in it at all

All of your friends are so immune to this
Rising over all you see, burning deep inside of me

I know the only direction you’re facing
Is shadowing the truly abrasive
Maybe the others will figure it out
How they avoid it, I still couldn’t tell you at all
But I won’t ever look the other way again
And I went to the places you said
That I should be going to.
I made it so obvious, I had nothing
To hide from you.
But still I feel empty somehow
So do what you’re gonna do
And leave me to wonder if I should be
So invested in it at all

All of your friends are so immune to this
Rising over all you see, burning deep inside of me

 

MY COLD REFLECTION

I want something to come and take me under for the winter
And light the wick inside me like an ember in a flame
So if my cold reflection tries to take my body over
At least I’ll have the sense to walk away

I do not want to rustle and awake my inner demons
Although I have some leverage, they got everything to gain
If they should ever surface and reveal the thoughts I’m thinking
I fear that I may never get it straight

So maybe I should get some distance,
Put a little space between myself and all the wreckage
Don’t want the mutiny inside of me to rise and overshadow
Everything that I know

Born another dollar sign, along with all the others
Now, who would I be fooling if I said I wasn’t bored
With these idea peddlers hustling for my attention?
But I don’t want to hustle anymore

So won’t you come and meet me over here among the ruins
We’ll keep the torch inside us, like an ember in a flame
And if our cold reflection ever tries to take us backwards
We’ll never make the same mistake again

So maybe we should get some distance,
Put a little space between ourselves and all the wreckage
Don’t want the mutiny inside of us to rise and overshadow
Everything that we know

Go where we want, tell me what you see
So far beyond the haze
This much I know
We don’t want to be
caught in the fray 

 

ALL OF MY ENEMIES

All of my enemies
Came at once
No patience left, 
We had enough
I have tried
In my way
To by right
Still I see
So much left
Unresolved
I want to leave
It all.

 

CASCADIA WAVING BACK

Hello Madras, ready to meet you
Got no papers, still believe you
You should see this - lights forever
Could have stopped, but we knew better

Powerful people. I’ll just say it:
Rules but no rules, we all fake it
Ready to witness. Are you seeing this?
Got no regrets, that’s your weakness

Let’s be honest, they had problems
Fell behind, so we forgot them
Holding out for something better
If it comes, I wonder…

Cascadia waving back at us from under the Pacific
Good to know you so long. When this wave comes, we will be caught up in it
I’m ready to meet you. Rules but no rules. If it comes I wonder when
Lights forever. Are you seeing this? On and on until the end…

Something’s off. I cannot place it.
Old ideas, all so faded
Faith in progress
Nature versus Brevity, 
Should I be nervous?
Let’s be honest, they had problems
Fell behind so we forgot them
Holding out for something better
Will it come, I wonder…

Cascadia waving back at us from under the Pacific
Good to know you so long. When this wave comes, we will be caught up in it.
I’m ready to meet you. Rules but no rules. If it comes I wonder when.
Lights forever. Are you seeing this? On and on until the end…

 

I’M MOVING

I feel like I’m always moving away
And everything here is moving the same
And I feel like it’s all so static and strange
The more I move away

I find no shade in this manicured wilderness
Nothing comes in or out, no sign of any weaknesses
One side’s oblivious, the other notices
That’s how it always is, I’m moving
I’m moving, I’m moving

You know that it’s all so scripted outside
And isn’t it hard to remember yourself
When there’s so many lines
And I see myself far enough away to be
Free from all the static and strange
The more I move away
If I keep moving away

I find no shade in this manicured wilderness
Nothing comes in or out, no sign of any weaknesses
One side’s oblivious, the other notices
That’s how it always is, I’m moving
I’m moving, I’m moving

 

Now I know

Never was the pull of it any stronger
Caught in the fog with all of the other observers
But now I know for sure what it is they wanted
Hateful as they were, I was never bothered
No, I wasn’t ever bothered

Would you call me out if I made a mess of myself
Or would you just go quietly seeking shelter?
No, I was never one to hold any grudges
Evil as they were, I still love them all

They made like it was fine and kept their feelings hid
So quietly appraising everything I did
But now I know for sure what it is they wanted
Spiteful as they were, I could see through it all
As if some voice were saying

Come right over, never mind them

Now I know for sure what it is they wanted
Many as they were, I was never bothered
Now I know for sure what it is they wanted
Hateful as they were, I was never like them
No, I was never like them

 

CAUGHT UP IN IT

Full disclosure, I’m no advocate of what they call progress.
Don’t it only pull you further from your purpose in the end?
Me and my friends, we know better.
Still we find ourselves caught up in it.

Why does everyone around me only ever seek distraction?
Are they so afraid to face the awkward silence in their head?
And you know I’d like to think that I was somehow an exception.
But if I’m above it all, then why do I feel so caught up in it.

I want to say I’m not the only kind who ever seeks distraction
I’d like to think that I could face the awkward silence in my head.
And everybody wants to say that they were somehow an exception.
But if we’re above it all, then how did we get so caught up in it.

I turn away, I feel the pull, then I fall back again.
I don’t know man, maybe I’m no better than them.
I see the gap between me and the world I’m living in.
Say what you want, really though are you any different?

 

AS IT IS

All my friends, everything here’s gonna change
and I have no attachment at all
I only wanna see it as it is. 
I know, even my pulse it'll pass.
None of this is gonna last.
I treat it like it ain't even mine
so don't i ever need to react.

There’s only so much I could fit in my pocket
and none was ever mine to control.
Not even once had I ever attempted to know

All as it is
See it rise
Let it pass
You're gonna find yourpeace in anonymity
Find your peace in anonymity.

And I made so much more sense of it all
The less I try, the less I try
And it adds up more than ever before
And I can relate to it all, the less I try

There’s only so much I could fit in my pocket
and none was ever mine to control.
Not even once had I ever attempted to know

All as it is
See it rise
Let it pass
You're gonna find your peace in anonymity
Find your peace in anonymity.